Life is feeling chaotic right now, sitting here too hot from my freshly cooked minestrone soup with cramps pretty much sums up life right now. This morning I journaled like I do most mornings and felt that this mish-mash collection and ramblings of everything in my head would be of use to somebody out there.
This is a collection of thoughts penned from the inside of my journal.
Just trying to make sense of this little world I live in, and perhaps it might help you make sense of something you have going on right now too.
Last Saturday I was working my day job and I told my boss that I have major #joblove. Why? Because I had a turmeric latter bought for me as a treat, and was gifted an incredible new jacket we just got in. This is on top of the already incredible perks I get with complimentary yoga and pilates classes.
Yesterday my day was made even more incredible by being gifted a brand new pair of running shoes as once again an incredible gift to say ‘thank you’ for all my work recently.
The funny thing is that this job didn’t just fall into my lap, it’s a job that a lot of people look to as their dream job, but I was able to make it mine.
I want to talk to you about why the thoughts that you are thinking to yourself are crucial to your own success.
If you are like any of my clients who first come to see me, you might have these stories swirling around in your head.
- I will never have a successful business.
- I can’t make money doing what I love.
- I am such a fraud, how can I call myself ____.
- I am never going to make it.
- Anything important has already been said.
Those above thoughts could be sporadic or they could feel like they are non stop. You might even wonder why it’s such a big deal? Why does it matter if you sometimes think like that when you truly do want your dreams?
Lately I’ve been in the middle of what I am going to call a shit-storm.
I feel like I should be further along. I feel like I keep falling short of the person I want to be.
Let me guess, you feel this way to? Honestly that doesn’t surprise me at all.
Why? Because you are here, and we live in the 21st century where you can see what everyone is doing with every minute of their time and how that is better than the option you are currently choosing. It’s a beautiful breathing ground for your ego.
Perhaps you have the feeling that you should be further along, that you should have your shit together, that you are taking the wrong path and should be doing what everyone else is.
I used to get really frustrated at myself for not doing the actions I kept saying that I wanted to occur. Scratch that, I still can get frustrated at myself for saying I want one thing and acting a different way.
It frustrates me to no end, and it would result in a berating cycle of feeling not good enough. If I wanted to be coaching people, why wasn’t I doing it? To me it seemed simple, if I wanted something to occur, why couldn’t I take the necessary steps to meet my desires?
My mind would spin round and round with all of these stories, and noise. And trust me it could and can get pretty noisy up there.
I thought I was a failure for declaring a goal one day, and not taking any action on it a week later.